mad world.

This week has been mad.
homework rush pw rush homework pi.
oh well, glad that I can rest well this long weekend.

listening to green day makes me feel liberated.
like really free from everything; all of these bullshit, and stuff like that.

I need some serious sleep instead of staying up and typing strange stuff about what I really think.

haha kay bye.

maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul,
that love never left.

Aurora XIV

Short update before I start with GP essays, Geog project and essay, Chinese worksheets, and Maths, Physics and Chemistry tutorials. Oh not forgetting PI and GPP for PW. haha.

AURORA XIV is the best I swear! haha.
Thank you 24/10 for your support! :D
love you all! :D

Back stage duty was memorable.
getting to see the performance backstage is something not everyone gets to experience.
haha could slack with teckyan and lejing backatsge :D

:)

A big Thank You to 24/10 for the rose and chocolates and card! ^^
I've never received flowers. haha honest fact.

I ROCK, RIGHT? :D (haha inside joke)

After last night I've come to realise that I'm still young.
haha, at least much younger than everyone else.

Next event to look forward to, Madi Gras 2010! :D

yay ftw ftw ftw.

haha I forgot what I wanted to write again! D<

okay back to work! :D (lol inside joke again hahaha)
kay byeeeeeeee.

GUITAR CONCERT IN 7 HOURS TIME.

^^ SO EGGCITED. ^^

Dust in the wind.

after struggling for so long,
all I wanted was a chance to spread my wings and fly.

I'm suffocating.

Maybe we, why don't we
Sit right here for half an hour
We'll speak of what a waste I am
And how we missed your beat again.

I'm so dammed tired.

I miss you, a lot.

I guess the only reason why I feel guity is because I can't forget.

River flows in you.

I just keep falling. It feels good. It feels wrong.

Don't ask me why. I just feel the guilt.

This is gonna be the first song I wanna master on the guitar. haha yay.
sure take me years. yay.

Many Worlds.

Many-worlds is an interpretation of quantum mechanics that asserts the objective reality of the wavefunction, but denies the reality of wavefunction collapse. It is also known as MWI, the relative state formulation, theory of the universal wavefunction, parallel universes, many-universes interpretation or just many worlds.

In many-worlds, the subjective appearance of wavefunction collapse is explained by the mechanism of quantum decoherence. By decoherence, many-worlds claims to resolve all of the correlation paradoxes of quantum theory, such as the EPR paradox and Schrödinger's cat, since every possible outcome of every event defines or exists in its own "history" or "world".

In layman's terms, there is a very large (perhaps infinite) number of universes, and everything that could possibly have happened in our past, but didn't, has occurred in the past of some other universe or universes.

I have so many things to complete but at the same time I have million of thoughts running through my mind and I cannot focus on my maths and gp and physics and chemistry and geography and my gpp and pi, which actually means I cannot focus on my pw and I cannot focus on anything at all.

So instead of wasting time, I suppose I should write something here to clear my head a lil' bit before I get on with work.

So, this is it.
another turning point, another split road.

The world is now split into two.
R's world, C's world, My world.

and this time I hope all will be well in this outcome.

I have mixed emotions now.

I'm happy for R, but sad for C and R.

Happy for R because he is the House captain.
(haha grats.)

Sad for R cause he has to leave guitar ensemble.
I know he loves it, and I secretly wanted him to stay.

But since he is happy, I'll support him all the way.
Can't expect him to stay at guitar and quit as house captain, all just for me right.

As for C, I just feel so much for him.
He did alot and honestly I saw a lot of potential but I guess all I can say is that God has bigger plans for him. haha.
So I shouldn't feel sad either.

I'm not directly involved in this but I actually feel so much for those two.
How ironic. I don't even feel so much for myself.

Lets just hope that everything will work out fine for everyone.

I had a lot more things that i wanted to write out here, but I guess it has all faded.
What to do?
always like that. lol.

Okay, back to work. yay.

the hardest part.

The hardest part,
was letting go,
not taking part.

You really broke my heart.

-Coldplay.

You know what I've concluded about myself after all these while?

I wanted to say it, but maybe not here.
maybe another time.

But even after all these while, I still feel sad.
sad because it was someone else who took away my chances.

It wasn't my choice.
It wasn't my fucking choice.

I feel damm crappy now.

Let me write something of decent length off before I start with work.

Currently my life is messed up because I don't know what my piorities are.
Family, Friends, Academics, Guitar, 48thBB, PW and maybe sleep.

I'm not spending enough time with my family.
I really pity my mum, cause she's alone at home most of the time.
I'm not contributing much to the family, am I?

I'm not coping well with work.
Maths=die, geog=die, physics=die, gp=die, chinese=die, chem= barely surviving haha
But leaving tutorials blank ain't helping a lot.

BB eats up my saturdays (and soon it'll take up my sundays as well)
Its not much of an issue now because its close session, but when parade resumes I think I'll die.

PW is beginning to take up alot of time.
It isn't as horrible as many make it out to be (maybe because I have nice teammates haha), or maybe it is just a matter of time before PW goes full force.

As for friends, idk..
I just need someone to confide in who actually understands me.

I need more time to practise guitar.
I'm so screwedddd.

I need more sleep.
I can't do anything right without sleep.
(I broke like 5 conical flasks this year during practicals so far because I was sleepy. haha beat that)

Its like a trade off.

I go home for dinner and miss out on dinner trips with the class.
I spend time on guitar and I don't have time for homework.
I go for BB on saturdays and I don't have sleep.
too bad I don't study econs, if not I'll be able to calculate opportunity costs better and prevent wastage. HAHA.

Maybe it just my pride.
I refuse to let certain things sink in.
Am I an over-achiever?
I wouldn't know.

I treat everything with equal piority.
Please don't make me sacrifice anyone of them.

But it may take sometime to clear this mess up.
Better time management starts now.

God, help me through this.

You know what?
I can't forget.
I still feel sad. ):

let things sink in, please let it sink in.

Anyway I think it'll be some time before a post of this length comes along. haha.
I took a long time to start this post.

okay, jiayou! :D

I need more time.

Don't regret.

I've had a lot running through my mind today but somehow my chain of thoughts got broken and i can't remember what I wanted to do.
this sucks.

Facebook sucks cause its always making me sad.

Concert Concert Concert.
Homework Homework Homework.
I need to focus.

stop thinking, start doing.

I know I'm irritating.

kay bye.

Have a little faith.

Have faith in me,
Cause there are things that I've seen I don't believe.
So cling to what you know and never let go.
You should know things aren't always what they seem.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it.
If you didn't have a chance then I never did.
You'll always find me right there again.

I've gone crazy, cause there are things in the streets I don't believe.
So we'll pretend it's alright (pretend it's alright!)
and stay in for the night, what a world.
I'll keep you safe here with me (with me!).

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it.
If you didn't have a chance then I never did.
You'll always find me right there again.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it.
If you didn't have a chance then I never did.
You'll always find me right there again.

They've got me on the outside looking in,
but i can't see at all with the weight of the world on my shoulders.
They just wanna see me fall.

They've got me on the outside looking in,
but i can't see at all with the weight of the world on my shoulders.
They just wanna see me fall.

Have faith in me.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it.
If you didn't have a chance then I never did.
You'll always find me right there again.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it.
If you didn't have a chance then I never did.
You'll always find me right there again.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.
I said I'd never let you go and I never did.
I said I'd never let you go and I never did.
I said I'd never let you go and I never did.

Work Work Work.

Viscosity is a measure of the resistance of a fluid which is being deformed by either shear stress or tensile stress. In everyday terms (and for fluids only), viscosity is "thickness". Thus, water is "thin", having a lower viscosity, while honey is "thick", having a higher viscosity. Viscosity describes a fluid's internal resistance to flow and may be thought of as a measure of fluid friction.

For example, high-viscosity magma will create a tall, steep stratovolcano, because it cannot flow far before it cools, while low-viscosity lava will create a wide, shallow-sloped shield volcano.

Rhyolite is an igneous, volcanic (extrusive) rock, of felsic (silica-rich) composition (typically > 69% SiO2). Due to their high content of silica and low iron and magnesium contents, rhyolite melts are highly polymerized and form highly viscous lavas.

Physical Geography is almost like chemistry+physics and Human Geography is like mathematics+economics.
Its.. interesting. haha

I need to start on homework.
fast.

I'm need to practise guitar.
I damm scared. haha.

Everyone has a redeeming quality.
come on, don't forget that.

Geog Project, GPP, performances and tests coming up.
haha i'll be screwed at the rate i'm going.

come on.
focus and stop blogging.
arghhhhh.

haha.

I feel like dying.

Hi people.

guess what.
I spent my whole afternoon on a blogskin and it didn't really turn out the way i wanted.
have to start with homework.

I feel like dying/crying at the same time.

I saw something on facebook that really made me went "WHAT THE FUCK."
as in, literally.

can't type it here.
for all you know he is stalking me here and i'm like.. dead.

seriously.
WHAT THE FUCK.

haha.

its hilarious and i'm laughing about it but it makes me feel like a loser at the same time.

okay nvm.
shall start on pi and guitar stuff now.

fml.

I can't seem to fall asleep even though i'm tired.

1. ): I'm sad because I ruined my chances. ): wanna cry.
2. PW group! haha I like my pw group. charmaine, jaime goh and shameer~ :)
though we are short handed, I think we can work well :D
3. guitar 'auditions' for concert tmr.
I havn't practised.

I guess the only thing I can do now is sleep early.

(I) good news.
I found inspiration already.

(II) another good news.
I can have this saturday all to myself. :D
first time ever since school reopnened haha.
anyway since its close session, its time for me to foucs as well.

okay bye.
I shall attempt to sleep.

quick update.

1) happy 55th birthday dad.
2) I realised that I dun really like to put titles for my posts nowadays.
3) I miss mr elwin ):
4) I'm doing maths now.
5) still have chinese and gp chem and physics
6) I'm almost done with my pi 2nd draft for pw :D
7) school is fun :D
8) I'm still me.. I guess.

kay bye.

This is a conversation between Ms Rita Wong and me in between chemistry tutorial and PW lecture today.

MsWong: okay class quick go for your pw lecture!
*frantically attempts to chase 24/10 out of the classroom*
Limpin: Life sucks. (talking to abdullah)
MsWong: What life sucks? You have a water bottle and umbrella. Not many people have an umbrella. Your mum must love you a lot.
Limpin: oh haha. its there so that my bag and books don't get wet.
MsWong: oh... So you get wet nevermind lah?
LimPin: ... (I was really speechless)
MsWong: *laughs and walks away*

For the first time in a long time, I felt important.
I never thought I'll matter so much to someone out there, especially my mum.

stay strong.

Guess what.

its 4 am in the morning and I've finally got an idea for my PI draft which was due last thursday.

Thank God.
haha.

oh, not forgetting chinese compo, gp, maths, chem homework and geog and physics test.

this is so exciting.

how he turned out like that.

now I understand.

flames to dust,
lovers to friends.

Why do all good things come to an end?


I'm sad but its okay.

I still feel as detached from everyone as before; if not, more.


till next time then.