Close your eyes.

My first GP assignment.
Not a very good start, is it?

LOL its not everyday someone gets to call me a noob!
Shall take this positively.
have to keep up with current affairs ^^

the weekends are almost here!
Homework has been killing me.
especially maths.

speaking about maths, I'm actually reminded of how bad my maths is.
I remember failing all 6 common tests in Sec 3.
And I remember that around this time last year, I was still pestering Mrs Koh to teach me Binomial Theorem HAHA.

I have to work harder for maths.
I can't do Physics without Maths.

I've got some haters in school lol lol.
or thats what I think. haha.
I dislike someone a lot though -.-

lol stuck up.

Mrs Toh is getting wierder and fiercer by the day.
Either that, or she just hates me. HAHA.

Chinese lessons are funny.
especially with the 06/10 people. hahaha.

GP sucks. -.-

Hope I get a good PW group.

Geography is very fun ^^
But I don't understand the difference between continental drift and plate tectonics lahh walao.
LOl crust and lithosphere got difference? o.o

Chemistry and Physics are the only subjects i sort of understand.
lol hope I dun die ^^

I got into Guitar Clubbbbbbbbb ^^
oh well, here comes the real challenge.
i have to master 3 pieces within the next 1-2 months.
must practise like mad.

okay, gtg sleep earlyyyy.
byeeee.

The Last Airbender.

I'm so going to watch this.

Lessons on friday were fine.
mass pe, geography, physics, chemistry.

I have a high chance of getting into guitarrr.
yayyyy :D

homework is piling up.
finished physics, chemistry, and left with maths and lots of rerading up for geography. Oh, there's debate too.
kns sia why throw this kind of things to us.

very tired.
bye.

Busy Busy Busy.

Started school proper today.
I have lots of homework untouched which is due tomorrow.
haha shall take it one step at a time.

Geography is very interesting.
If the theory of shock dynamics is true, that means dinosaurs did become extinct because of the metorite. haha.
I though of that you know! haha.

My Maths teacher super joker.
haha yayyyy hope he won't fierce.

downloading a lot of geography stuff now.
need to organise myself.

Its kind of funny how I find people whom I lost contact with for a very long time on facebook.
They're like the friends of my friends on facebook.
found Brandon Tanoto and Kah Lun haha.

okay time to get organised.
shitzzzz.

homework.
busy busy.

A freak of Nature stuck in reality,

A Freak of Nature
Stuck In Reality
I Don't Fit The Picture
I'm Not What You Want Me To Be
Sorry

Under The Radar
Out of The System
Caught In The Spotlight
That's My Existence

You Want Me To Change
But All I Feel Is

Strange
Strange
In Your Perfect World
So
Strange
Strange
I Feel So Absurd In This Life
Don't Come Closer
In My Arms
Forever, You'll Be
Strange
Strange

If You Want To Fix Me
Push Me
Into Your Fantasy
You Try To Give Me
Sell Me
A New Personality

You Try To Leave Me
I Don't Get Better
What's Making You Happy
Is Making Me Sadder

In Your Golden Cage
All I Feel Is

Strange
Strange
In Your Perfect World
So
Strange
Strange
I Feel So Absurd In This Life
Don't Come Closer
In My Arms
Forever, You'll Be
Strange
Strange
Like Me

Strange - When You Touch Me
Strange - When You Kill Me
Strange - All I Feel Is
Strange

In My Dreams
Together, We'll Be
Strange
Strange
In A Perfect World

Strange
I am So Strange
Strange
I am So Afraid

Strange
Strange
In Your Perfect World
So
Strange
Strange
I Feel So Absurd In This Life
Don't Come Closer
You'll Die Slowly
In My Arms
Forever, You'll Be
Strange
Strange
Like Me

Mashups.

Hello. LOL.
I was very bored this morning and I went on a hunt for more music.
LOL. and I found Norwegian Recycling. haha.
Mashup creator.

The one above is not bad. haha.
The One below is super good.
never heard anything of that standard before.
Eminem + FF VII Battle theme.
super cool.

I've never liked raps but I really have to admit this one is amazing.



this should keep me happy for the day. haha.

oh, I've finally got a decent photograph for a profile picture on facebook.
wouldn't want my self-esteem to stay at rock bottom.

reunion dinnerrr.

The Final Riot.

Blogging on my new laptop notebook now. (eh I still don't understand the difference between a notebook and a laptop)

so... I guess life's been good?
at least its not being a bitch, so I'm thankful enough.

CG Bonding day was good :)
pizza, talks, muderer, oh well :)
can't say we're VERY bonded, but at least we know each other's names right. haha.

My CT (Civics Tutor) Mr Han is super cool.
(His wife is his JC classmate. cool right, haha.)
He is like a second Mr Gavin Lee.
Looks like him, speaks like him, works like him.
He tutoring me Physical Geog. haha.
Ohhhhh I GOT MR ELWIN FOR HUMAN GEOG ^^ YAYYYY.

CNY celebration was okay today.
can't say it was fantastic cause I was very bored, but can't say its bad either, cause there was a lot of planning involved and I guess people enjoyed themselves.
oh well.
the visit back to zhss was fun though :)
feels wierd seeing everyone in their new school uniforms.

& Mrs Koh asked me not to give up on maths!
wa seriously, its quite very challenging ):
*******************************************
there was a student development talk yesterday.
I realised that I really want to go for alot of things.
idk why. maybe because I lost too many chances back at zhss?
so this is what I'll like to achieve and experience by the end of these two years.

1) PIRORITY: Get at least a Silver for NAPFA for next year.
(hopefully this year too. or maybe at least a bronze.)
I wouldn't want to enlist 5 months in advance. zzz.

2) Presidents Award.
I didn't manage to get Founders when I was a BB boy, so I'll definitely try for this one.
though I know its not going to be easy.

3) NYAA Gold.
Hard Work too. LOL.
(A lot of requirements in Presidents actually overlaps with NYAA Gold)

4) Learn the Guitar.
Joining Guitar Club as a CCA in TJC!
Hope I get in ^^
& I'm going to practise harddddd. come'on, I know I can do it.

5) Go for a overseas CIP trip.
Might be going with BB to Cambodia this June.
Shall see how! :)

6) Outward Bound India/Korea (OBI/OBK)
Didn't get to go for OBS, so I'm definitely trying for this one.

7) Go for a Geography Field Trip.
This is interesting.. lol ^^

8) National Camp (Sep 2010, biannual camp)
9) Camp Temasek (Dec 2010, once every five years)
Didn't get the chance to go for these camps.
So I really would like to go to these camps as instructors! haha.

its really going to take up a lot of time.
But I really don't want to miss out on things.

SHALL SEE LAH.
hahaha.

oh well, happy cny to everyone in advance.

I'm a human too, my life has value.

LOL hello.

CG 24/10 is a class with very nice people.
At least most of them are. haven't met a few of them.
heehe.
worried so much for nothing! :D
haha glad that I don't need to worry anymore.

LOL. The senior who was supposed to pin my collar pin during the commencement ceremony pinned it on the wrong side. super funny.

haha I made friendsss :D
but i forgot their names -.- (lol I only remember Martin and Abdullah)
lol nvm got one whole day tmr cause its CG bonding day tomorrow.

Physical Geography, Chemistry and GP lecture.
A level's going to be tough.
imagine university.
oh man.

One week of orientation in TJC actually yields more photos (of me) than my 4 year stay in zhonghua.
quite amusing. haha.

this song quite cool.



Sugar coated white lies,
Can only get you so far before you get.
Caught up in the middle and,
I'm a human too, my life has value,
And everybody will think the same.

It won't leave me time to wake up,
Sugar coated white lies in the middle.
If this is the lie then what am I?

Now I'm standing on my rooftop.
I sure could use someone to talk to.
Someone to make it alright,
Cause I'm done pretending.

Sugar coated white lies,
Can only get you so far before you get.
Caught up in the middle and,
I'm a human too, my life has value.
And everybody will think the same.

I never thought that I would live to see,
Everyone and me struggling to breathe.
If this is the lie then what am I?

When the power of love,
Exceeds the love for power.
The world will finally, finally know peace.

They'll fight for the center of the universe with the sun,
You're trapped in your tube, and blind from the truth.
This is the future thats in store for you.

Sugar coated white lies,
Can only get you so far before you get.
Caught up in the middle and,
I'm a human too, my life has value,
And everybody will think the same.

Sugar coated white lies,
Can only get you so far before you get
Caught up in the middle and,
I'm a human too, my life has value.
And everybody will think the same.

This is the portrait, the man behind the curtain has painted for.
As long as you choose to be separate,
You leave yourselves completely enslaved.

Xeyla.

Someday, I'll frame this up.
Thank you.

I'll show you mine, if you show me yours first.

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first.
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse.
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words.

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage.
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand.

I've been here so long, I think that its time to move.
The winters so cold, summer's over too soon.
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow.

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know.
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world.
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go.

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage.
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand.

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first.
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse.
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words.

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage.
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand.

Swing life away.

"You're all fuckin' awesome!"

Its 2.16am, Sunday morning. 07 February 2010.
All I want to say now, is that Orientation X was such a success!
A big thank you to everyone who made it a success! I really enjoyed it :)

Mass Dance @ Fountain of Wealth, Suntec City - 04 February 2010, Thursday.
I lost my voice there.
I'll never forget that place, that night, and the people :)
haha really enjoyed it :)

O-Night 2010 @ TJC - 05 February 2010, Friday
The final night.
Talent Night 2010 was fabulous! :D
The games were humorous, and the OG performances were entertaining as well.
Even though OG 7's performance did have hiccups here and there, It was overall a success! :D

SavingSomeone did a gig for the finale and it was awesome. (really no other word to describe it)
I really got high there. lol.
I should go for gigs sometime too. haha.

Even though Xeyla didn't get overall champion, I'm sure that we're still the best clan! :D
HAHAH OG 7 is the best!
awwww I miss them already.
made alot alot of friends. TEEHEE ^^

Go Green Day @ Bedok - 06 February 2010
A day of smiles.
haha I don't usually say things like that but I smiled alot. (at least that is what I think so? haha)
It was fun, getting to talk to the OG 7 peeps and stuff and working with them.
haha :D
Lunch was very fun alsoooo. :D

oh well.
**************************************
Subject Combinations are finally out.

CG 24/10
Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics, Geography. (PCMG)

I'm one of the last science classes, but being last here doesn't mean anything.
IT WON'T MEAN ANYTHING.

I'm quite upset actually.
disappointed? lost? or what?

I should channel all of these negative feelings away.

Not going to be too judgemental here as well.
Hope everything turns out well.

I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE MR ELWIN FOR GEOG TUTORIALS T.T

oh well, shall give him a second chance.

"The reason why people get second chances is because they don't usually get a third one.

lastly I would hope I get along well with everyone.
wouldn't want to have bad blood with anyone.

3.09am.
this post took quite a while huh.

I should stop listening to sum41.
Their songs never fails to get me thinking.

"Give me one RANDOM Clap!"

I have no voice now.
Its 11.41pm, I've to wake up at 5.30am later.

anyway, today was by far the greatest day of orientation.
I won't know about tomorrow, but I certainly hope it'll be better than today.
haha :)

Lectures in the morning.

I died in maths.
Now I understand why its called "Advanced Level" (A Level)Maths.
Arthimetric Progression. HAHA.
Next one will be Geometric progression. Harder -.-

Geography was nice! ^^
haha the human geog lecturer (yeah Mr Elwin, the angmohhhhh) was super funny. :D
There're 6.9 billion people in the world, still increasing.
India will become the world's most populous country in 15 years.
49% of the world lives on less than USD$2 per day.
Age expectancy will rise up to 100years by the time I get old.
all about population changeeee.

anyway, I had a break in between maths and geog, and I sat with the Catholic high people (HAHA Sheng Kai and the two Kenneths.)
All take full history one. Wa found friend.
HAHA. Oh yeah, they speak chinese more than english too. hahaha.
so zhonghua, nan chiau, and cat high has actually formed an alliance in tjc. hahaha.

anyway, rehearsal for O-night was nice :)
we got in yayyy (that was yesterday's news) and I was quite surprised cause chinhow's group was quite good too. haha.

11.49pm now.

had mass dance at suntec! ^^
the trip from bedok to city hall was quite fun.
hahaha Kai Xin kept laughing.
Sheng Hong very epic.

I got really high at the mass dance.
I lost my voice.
I was more random than anyone else.

wanted to stay for supper with my O.G, but decided against it afterwards.
haha I don't want to be fat. (wa hungry now)
so went home with Sheng Kai! YAYYYY.
ehhh we can click. hahaha.

alright, off to bed :)
11.55pm :)

Okay.
Today was nice :)

anyway, the insecurities are all getting to me because of my subject combination.
I've to decide on CCA as well ):

I don't fit in very well.

heck. I'm off to bed.

Emotions are mental states of the mind.

Hello.
I'm feeling a little lousy so just let me rant here.
(Me feeling lousy and lonely doesn't mean that I'm sad okay.)

I'm tired of some people with low eq.
(might get stuck with them. so sad ): )

I passed the K.I test. (it was on the three little pigs -.-)
haha. But I'm most probably going to fail the interview.

So what happened was, they asked me "why K.I?"
I said that I was taking it for physics. (i really think i'm the bravest soul to give that answer. quite original. haha)
and I wanted to state the 'unknown variable theory'
then I said "aether theory", which was the theory einstein falsified when quantum mechanics was born.

BIG MISTAKE.

she shot the thing back at me. SHIT.
SERVES ME RIGHT. HAHA ACT SMART.

gp teachers are really well read.
cannot play play.
imagine.. your gp teacher can teach you physics. WTH.

looks like they rejected me before i could reject them ):

anyway, I have a feeling that my gp teacher will be one of the 3 interviewers.
the indian teacher, the older chinese woman, or this young chinese man.
sian man. create bad impression.

I smsed Mrs Ngiam this afternoon and one sms from her was enough to convince me about my choice of subject combination.
I see potential in geog, really!
stupid economists out there! (HAHA. just jk. okay sorry. no offence, no hard feelings alright.)

so far, I have only managed to find two science students who are taking geography.
(not the cross combi ones, tyvm)
one is robert (lol his surname is santosa, cool right! hahaha) and another one is taking bcme.
I think we high chance same class. haha.
out of 50 people only 3 people want geography as ONE AND ONLY contrasting subject.
sian.

okay nvm.
moving on to happier things, I've made a few aquaintances :)
let me see how many I can remember.

Shen Kai, Hwee Joo, Kai Xin, Shermaine (i think), Silver (lol Ag), Yong, Ian, Sabrina (haha the nicole look-a-like), Robert (yah santosa heehe), and Aglian (victoria school track and field! haha)

Not forgetting ShengHong and Nicole who are in my OG!
haha.

and my very very nice OGLs :D
Darrellyn (I THINK.), Belinda, YuCheng, and Vanessa! :D

speaking of which, my OG is a nice group ^^
I didn't like them much on the first day cause they were D-E-A-D.
Now much more lively.
TEEHEE :D

The Nan Chiau peeps (Hwee Joo and Kai Xin) are very nice ^^
haha maybe they're approachable because our school's culture almost the same.
hahaha.

oh well.

lots of other things to blog about, but I shall wait till I'm free.

To conclude this post, I shall conclude my KI experience.
I gained a lot from it, really.
about how everything, especially emotions, are states of minds.
yes, everything, every sensation.

I have actually learnt to control my temper better.
HAHA.

okay. every sensation is a state ot mind.
every sensation, except for hunger.
I need food now.
haha.

results for KI out tomorrow at 12pm.
If I don't get in, no loss.
If I DO get in, reject them in the face. ^^v

okay bye.