well, these 2 weeks have been full of high key events.
our first 6km road march, IMT/BTP (range), Hand Grenade, IPPT.
was short of 4cm to pass ippt for sbj.
but if I don't make it, I don't.
so oh well, here's to the next ippt!
was very down these two weeks, sort of an all time low for this period.
realised how conceited I was.
and realised how far away I was from my goals as well.
don't think nus is offering me a scholarship cause I havn't received any reply.
But oh well, so far no news, so shall take it as good news.
but need to keep my spirits up.
field camp tomorrow.
note to myself:
stay optimistic, don't give up. just a little bit more. bit by bit. hang in there. just keep trying. be disciplined, control myself, and help everyone else.
alright, so, do the best you can, no regrets, stay happy.
"I will do today what others won't, so that I can do tomorrow what others can't."
- Lester
This week was fast, but i'm really not sure why it was so damn long.
felt like forever man, just that it was enjoyable ^^ hehehe
1. week full of fire.
fire near tekong island, fire at apache/broncho audi while we were there, and that false fire alarm on sunday night at 1am (which we all thought was another damned turnout haha)
all of us rushed down with our helmets and fire extinguishers and fell in, and went to coy line office.
sgt kuanjie was sleeping inside, and when we woke him up he had that FML face haha damn funny.
and falcon was like "f***ing false alarm go back sleep" hahahaha.
but it was fun, just that it made everyone tired the next day.
2. IPPT on wednesday.
pull up status: 4.
improving fast, hope to reach 5 by next week!
sbj status:203
improving but not fast enough!
come'onnnnnnnn.
situps: 29
fail haha knn f**** shit wth
need to train again #sian hate situps
shuttle run: 10.5s
could have been 10.2, need to be a little faster
2.4km run: 10:53min
yes, touched 10mins, next aim is 10:20min
well need to work alot harder I guess.
rawr.
3. scorpion time this week! (oh ask me why I call free time scorpion time. please)
lots of periods i guess, haha damn shiok.
4. SOC lesson 1.
can clear low rope, yet to try low wall, but all is good (:
5. IFC
damn freaking fun.
but can forsee getting trashed by the sgts with our current performance haha.
6. New recruits came in this week!
saw some people I know in school 1 and 2 hahaha.
but so pissed cause the platoon keeps singing the bookout songs infront of them which I think was stupid behaviour.
being in the army is not an excuse for us not to think about other's feelings and morale.
but they just can't stop so.... sigh.
anyway, looking forward to pop-ing with them!
7. Dominic sat down and told me, that I am too helpful.
well, its not a bad thing totally, but he said that firstly, he doesn't want me to get worn out, and secondly, when I help others, I expect others to help me as well, and most of the time I don't get that help I want and it affects my morale.
and I was shocked cause he totally read me like a book.
so I guess I got to keep my expectations of others in check.
but with other people not being proactive, how can I not volunteer to do stuff?
7. well, shalln't talk about this one.
just that sometimes things happen.
gonna talk to the commanders and try and find a solution for this one.
but it happened right in front of me, and I could do nothing to stop it.
sigh oh well, things happen.
k thx bye gonna sleep and book in tmr.
haha well this is army life HAHA.
next week gonna be exciting!
Markmenship training (both computerised and real range), 6km road march in long 4, Urban ops (which is likely to be postponed or suspended due to the many accidents that has been happening)
and of course, college day (going to see the teachers!), FoS open house (which I don't think I'll be going cause of college day), and dental checkup (aww fml)
Early book in on monday night for guard duty on tuesday.
Not that bad - the SGTs we got were nice, though the duty SGT was annoying at times.
prowled ladang camp with weijie.
and we just talked.
science, religion, relationships, mistakes from the past, everything under the sun.
haha well i'm really glad I did duty with him. (:
walkie-talkie language is interesting. haha.
There was a thunder storm halfway when we were prowling ladang during our second shift.
AND IT WAS FUCKING SCARY.
loudest thunder strike I ever heard.
and I was like FUCK WE'RE GONNA DIE.
but it was memorable cause we kept talking and talking without stopping - people we both know, nature, and lots of other things.
and I learnt some stuff from him I guess.
like how it is common to get cocky once in a while (always unhappy with myself because of that); it is not alright, but we shouldn't put ourselves down because of it. Instead, we should constantly check ourselves.
Night Duty was Sentry (I got Apache Gate with Weijie for first midnight shift and a Perm Staff for second midnight shift)
Didn't manage to get any sleep during breaks (was busy doing peer appraisal which was homework HAHAHA)
but it was alright cause I didn't feel sleepy. haha.
Anyway, the SGT I got for Sentry was very nice.
He asked me to sleep even though I wasn't tired cause he knew that I had training later and needed.
Didn't sleep though - talked to him until 0530 when we left for Guardhouse.
shall keep the stuff he told me secret (INTERNET IS OPEN HAHA SUCKERS)
All I can say is that it'll be a new adventure wherever I'm posted to after BMT.
Thursday went past quick - sleepy + cranky cause of lack of sleep.
But everyone was so sweet.
HAHA Dylan Khoo was the sweetest (awwwwwwwwwwww) He bought strepsils for me! ((: (sweet... get it? HAHA)
Platoon, Company and Individual Photoshoot.
I really love Platoon 3 (:
Disfucntionally functional (:
Today was fast as well.
PT in the morning, and it was bookout to Singapore Discovery Center!
Army Museum (which was quite interesting and amazing)
Want to go on a overseas peacekeeping/humanitarian aid mission if I have the chance!
Tour to SAFTI as well. (didn't know it was open to the public haha)
To Lead, To Excel, To Overcome.
How can I lead and overcome challenges if I don't excel?
Must make sure I am up there before trying.
Well, OCS is still far from sight, not sure if I can make it anymore.
Kenneth was saying how my confidence is wavering hahaha.
but oh well, fighting spirit, and a little bit more consistency, perserverence, and initiative.
I'm becoming very insensitive towards others - need to start keeping myself in check.
Had dinner with section 4/Platoon 3 peeps @ Carl's Jr.
HAHAHA SHIT gained back all the weight I shed.
but HECK HAHAHAHA.
well, I'm back here at home.
Avengers with Class peeps tmr, and outing with leona Bree and JJ on Sunday.
and book in!
May Batch coming in next week.
and the real challenge starts - PTP ends, and BMT phase starts next week.
