GP paper today.

I'm really hoping i can pass, but I won't be too disappointed if i don't

But still, I believe I can pass! haha!
Hebrews 11:1!

anyway, after gp paper, went home with the 3 touch rug peeps.
and we gossiped a lot.
then we talked and suddenly they started digging up dirt from the past.
yeah they were mistakes and i do feel sad about making them, I'm a changed man. (LOL)

or am I not?

I'm sort of confused now though.
I don't know how to express this weird feeling.

anyway, this made me realise that I'm not that goood afterall.
and I have lots of things to improve on.

I realised that I shouldn't forget the past.
Not forgetting the past would let me realise how far I have improved,
and much much further I can actually go.
and this shall serve as my motivation.

come'on come'on.

I wondered what happened when you offered yourself to someone, and they opened you, only to discover you were not the gift they expected and they had to smile and nod and say thank you all the same.

When someone dies, it feels like the hole in your gum when a tooth falls out. You can chew, you can eat, you have plenty of other teeth, but your tongue keeps going back to that empty place, where all the nerve endings are still a little raw.

I NEED TO FOCUS.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when i'm awake, you know?

I need inspiration.

I need Your strength and wisdom.

Whats your action plan?

Its raining now.

Let me pen down/write out type out whatever I have before it slips me again.

it has been some time since i last updated.. haha.

anyway its wednesday of the last week of the holidays already.
I have barely started on revision. haha.

oh, there a difference between a asylum seeker and a refugee.

anyway Youth Leadership Congress was great!
Learnt a lot from everyone.
Differnt characters, different leadership styles.

New friends: Aloysius and John from 9th COY (Westwood Sec) and Wen Yang from 21st (Geylang Methodist Sec).
haha they're a funny bunch.
got to know Aloysius and John on the bus to NUS hahahaha.
Wen Yang knows YingZhi O.O

Saw Muthi, Roy and ShiWei from 19th COY, Yishun town sec.
Got to know them because of SYF OC in June 2008.
haha its really 2 years ago. makes me feel old.

turns out muthi is at AJC! haha.
PCME 4 H2 haha.

Saw some people from LDC II 202 2008 as well.
Andrew and Weixiang, 26th COY Tanglin Sec,
Bryan from 54th Bukit Batok Sec
And of course, the guys from 2nd COY Victoria School.
Timothy Tay and his friends haha.
Tim tay's is in MJC haha.

Also got to know Kim Leong!
haha he's one special guy.
haha he's from 65th COY Hong Kah Sec,
same LDC batch as me! haha.
too bad I wasn't in the same company as him during the camp haha.

was hoping I could work with more people but its alright.
there's still camp temasek. haha.

I was made to take charge of Group 9, comprising of 19 (originally 21) Boys.
haha.
from 73rd 79th 82nd 87th COY.
They're a mischievious bunch but haha at least they listen to me :)
Hope they've learnt something from the congress and can serve back at their companies.
Their companies didn't send any primers, and I didn't have any boys from my own company, so they made me take charge of them.
Honestly, its a relatively big group (ratio of almost 1:20 primer to boys, when there were group with ratio of 1:3 primer to boys. lol 4 primers for 12 boys and they know each other since they're from the same company.)
But I should give myself a pat on my back.
did it relatively well I guess.
first day was very chaotic though haha.

Was the facilitator for WWF 6 as well.
had 3 of the boys from 79th COY with me, as well as this boy called yi xun from 66th COY.
he's damn pro, know how to play guitar, violin and he has a diploma in pianooo zzomggg.
nice working with them. (even though our project turned out quite sucky because of some reasons ]: )
haha.

anyway, HQ invited Ms Penny Low and Mr Teo Ser Luck to speak and I learnt a lot from it.
Mr Teo's speech was exceptionally inspiring.

Dr. Ho, vice-dean of the business school and chairman of the organising committee of the congress, also spoke to us.
He's been in the brigade for 30 years already and has been teaching for 20 plus years and I'm surprised he is still so passionate about educating people.
He really makes me respect him.
chrismatic speaker, caring man, composed leader.

Nowadays Professors teach very little. Its not because we are lazy, its because we're not supposed to. Our job as educators, is not to regurgitate content. It is not. It is to make students excited, so that they will read up more on their own. They learn more, we teach less, they benefit more, it makes our job easier as well.

I found out that after working with Sir Jason from 94th COY for LDC II,
I became more comfortable with facilitating.
haha yay.

Anyway, Watched A Team with the PCME idiots on monday.
haha i was very impressed with the movie. :)
so excitingggg.

"Gandi wasn't afraid to fight for what he believed in.

Am I ready to fight for what I believe in?
Am I ready to work for what I want?

I'm not sure.

We'll see :)

arms aching. ouch.

pokemonnnn ^^

I must pass JCTs!
but I have been very unproductive ):

Camp Temasek General meeting @ BBHQ later at 1930!
haha excitedd.

孩子。树

I've been searching for this movie for a very long time.

I remembered watching it once when I was young,
but I forgot the title.

I liked it quite a lot, but sadly it production cost was S$1.3 million but box office was only S$720,000.

haha but anyway enjoy.
Now that I know the title, I'll rent the movie.
maybe after A'levels? haha.

the english title of this movie reminds me of someone. hahahaha.
the treeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee <3 :D

There's still one more movie that I've been searching for almost 6 years now.
No leads, I guess.