Seeing is not believing, but believing is not seeing.

The past week sucked a lot.
Homework deadlines projects pimples angst helplessness.
Suck it up, this will not kill me, grow stronger.

Madi Gras was quite a disappointment.
I felt damm sucky as well. well because of the exco thingy but its alright I guess.
I don't feel alright but there's nothing I can do, right?
They asked me not to read too much into it but I guess they'll think the same way as me if they were in my position.

Upon reflection, I realised that I need better time management and a lot more self-discipline.
Discipline is key.

Just woke up from a 6 hour nap.
Feel so sleepy now.

Anyway, parade today was normal?
The boys, as normal, aren't performing up to standards, but I guess I can't blame them for it.
Who then, should shoulder the blame for the decline of singaporean youths?
LOL GP.

I feel lonely but its alright. haha.

Anyway I decided to sit in for CE lesson today, and that actually served as a reminder.
A reminder about one of the very fundamentals the Christian Life - faith.

Faith is being sure of what we hope for,
and being sure of what we do not see.

Hebrews 11:1 NIV

When we want to rest, do we check if the chair is stable before we sit on it?
When we are hungry, do we check if the food our mother cooks is poisoned?

No, we don't.
And why don't we?
its because of faith, isn't it?

Do we trust God enough to let Him satisfy our needs?
Do we have enought faith in Him, to let Him solve our problems?

Its a totally different level of faith.

Without faith, it is impossible to please God.
Without faith, we are denying ourselves of Him.

Without faith, we will die.

Faith is oxygen for the spirit, for our spritual lives.

This lesson spoke to me so strongly.
I don't really know why.
But thank God. haha.
I really needed that.

So all I guess I can do, is to have a little more faith in myself, my abilites, but have a lot more faith in what God can do.

Kay Bye I'm going to sleep now haha.

This sucks.

Its the holidays, but the emotional burden is still there.
Its not the workload.
I don't really care about work because it comes and goes.
Gotten used to it already.
But the emotional burden is always... there?

I don't know what causes this weird feeling though.
Time to reflect.

Whats with all of this fucked up shit?

ARGH.

You're the one with the problem, not me.

I'm angry.
I'm fucking angry.

I'm fucking angry with you, asshole.

You're sick.
Yes you.
You are sick in the mind.

Curse of Curves

I need people to stop being so superficial and individualistic.
please, I just need everyone to stop being stop being this shallow.
I know I judge as well but I need a break.

Undue assignments!
Busy week ahead.

Have a little more faith.

"Don't say "God, I have a big problem." Say "Problem, I HAVE A BIG GOD."

No problem is too big for Him :)

I don't know what to name this post even though I had a name for it and it slipped my mind.
oh, actually I remember it now haha.

Anyway a little update.

Sent Emmeline off at the airport on Saturday.
Haha have a safe and fun trip! :)
Bon Voyage.

My Journey to Changi Airport was funny. haha.
I wouldn't want to describe my journey in too much detail but in summary I took 27 from my house to the airport (Joshua only told me that they were on their way to changi airport at 9 and I live in Hougang!?) and I missed terminal one cause it has no number at the bus stop and I didn't know it and the next thing I knew I was outside the airport already and I had to run in to the airport from outside and I reached terminal one insead of two and had to run to terminal one.

No Zuhair its not a sad drama show where the male lead misses the female lead by seconds.
and my 2.4km timing (ran today and it made me awfully tired haha) didn't come out as well as I expected it to be ): haha. oh well :)

ouch. was panting like mad hahaha but it was damm funny.
exciting yet nerve wrecking at the same time haha.

Anyway after emm went in, the peeps stayed for a while and went home, leaving martin, vivi, dylan and me.
We proceeded to macs where I dranks a mango smootie which actually caused me to burp.
I still havn't stopped burping today.

we then cabbed and I stayed over at dylan's house.
haha his house very cool ^^
His dog was scary though ):

We talked for quite a bit. haha.
We played rock band and I got owned flat.
sianzzzz.
music notes haha.

Sunday was supposed to be spent rushing homework but I slept instead.
which means I have a lot of work to clear. haha.

Anyway, today was such a perfect day.
I couldn't have asked for anything more :)

My Secretary husting for guitar exco went quite well I guess :)
There is still the Vice-President hustings zzz haha hope everything goes well :)

Anyway I really need to survive this week.

Wednesday - Physical Geography test
Thursday - Mathematics Test
Friday - Chemistry Test

Not forgetting that I have guitar on Monday (today), Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.
I like guitar but isn't this a little bit too much? =X haha :D

Human Geography Project presentation on thursday!
Jia you Jia you!

GPP on alert!
need to jiayou for it :)

Anyway, I spoke to Ms Wong Ying Ying about my guitar and BB comittments and she has agreed to let me go all out during the december holidays :)
haha thank you for being so understanding! :D
I thought she'll be intimidating but she was real nice.

Today was such a nice day :)
I want a better tomorrow! :D

Jia you Jia You! :D
Don't lose hope.