Let me back in.

Have you ever felt like beauty was right in front of you, and you start to lose grip of it.

"we partake in each other's success and failure"

Nothing much this week, just that... (Starts importing stuff from learnet reflections)

1. first 5 day week in a long time. so it has been a pretty long week.

 2. First turnout for the company this week. Well, its supposed to be punishment, but I found it quite funny and was laughing and smiling to myself about it hahaha. Remembering doing it with the others and on my Boys and it was actually great fun. #saddist not that the turnout was shit or what (if it were real shit I wouldn't be laugh about it anymore), but I guess many will agree that it is stuff like this that we remember the most haha.

3. Current Affairs this week was intersting. "Should war exist?" Well, it really got me thinking. and wrote quite a bit on leanet for it :P

4. Cut timing for 2.4km to 11.33, target to cut another min by next ippt.

5. broke zero for pull ups on the day after ippt. was quite happy, but I sort of discovered its only the start. (start of a long journey lol) (8 more to go!)

6. I really have much to learn. Need to start using my 'common sense' (which isn't very common in the army)

7. NUS interview was both alright I guess. The professors were very friendly, and it was just a brief chit chat session to learn more about us. But I guess I was over-enthusiastic HAHAHA. (which might be both good and bad) and they asked me a physical geog question on earthquakes which I'm not sure if I answered correctly (oh gawd) (didn't think of the recent tsunami warnings as well ):) And they asked about my chinese grades (which i didn't realise and said 'not very sure why' and only realised it 2 hours after the interview SHIT) but oh well its over and I think I did fairly well haha.

8. Guitar Performance next week. Quite nervous about it ): no time to practice. need to startttt.

 9. 4 day break after this week! gogogo! (: Looking forward to the next week!

Ready to Strike.

This song makes me so happy. (:

 Its been a long week in camp, especially since its right after the long weekend.

Anyway, 2 road marches (3km) in a week, PT and more PT and screwing up far too many times this week.
But my section and Platoon mates are there to help me, so I guess I'm alright.

Well, feel damn bad about blowing my top again this week.
It was me over-reacting, and I should stop getting so defensive.
Well, it takes time I suppose.

On the other hand, NUS Undergrad Scholarships offered me an interview.
Not much time to prepare, so I'll just have to show them who I am.
If they like me, I'll be happy. If they don't, then its their loss.
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I really have to up my game.
screwed up too many times, let go of too many opportunities.

There are too many things that I want.
I'll have to start fighting for them; I have to show that I deserve all I get.

I really hate fighting, cause with someone's victory comes another's loss, and I hate to be the one who loses, and I don't want anyone else to feel sad either.

But I guess I have to start looking beyond that.

Cause within every struggle, within every fight, there is courage; there is sacrifice.
and these are what make people great.

I'll have to start learning and start to fight and struggle.

I fucking want it, and I will fight for what I want.

and maybe at the end of the fight, there is sportsmanship; there is brotherhood.
and maybe even if we lose, we found a greater feeling than winning itself.

It'll be hard, but it'll be worth it.
so don't you dare let yourself down time and time again and tell yourself 'its alright', cause its not.
there's only that one chance there and then, and you better do what is right; what is honorable; and do what is you best.

I'll look forward to the fight.

First, you guess it.

by far one of my favourite feynman series videos.
short, but really highlights feynman's humour and influence on people's lives. (esp. his sister)
enjoy and appreciate it (:

The inconceivable nature of nature.

tears.

well, glad the wake is over now.

Remember CPT Fong telling us on the first day we enlisted, that humans are the most stupid creatures on earth, because they never learn from other's mistakes; they can only learn from their own.

I agreed with what he said, but I never understood how deep the statement was.

well, I really have much to learn.

The Atlantic was born today, and I'll tell you how.
The clouds above opened up and let it out.

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere.
When the water filled every hole,
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
Making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.

Most people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing floodlands to your door,
Have been silenced forever more.
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row,
It seems farther than ever before.
Oh no.

I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer

I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer

So come on, come on
So come on, come on
So come on, come on
So come on, come on

Physics textbook salvaged from the physics lab, table lamp, this song, night breeze, me.
Its a beautiful night tonight.