2. Crush.

I guess, life gets better after the shit is over. haha.

anyway, i got to get strarted on work!
must get motivated!

Paper work for President's and NYAA Gold must start soon also!
WOO!

I'm so glad I attended cell on friday!
Shared with Sir kumfai and the rest about me cheating during pe lesson and they laughed about it hahahaha.

"If I were you I would have done the same thing!"

haha.
guess I have to stand firm on my feet from now on and not be swayed by peer pressure.

was so tired that i slept from 7am to 7pm!
went back to sleep and was late for church today!
oops hahahahaha.

anyway, I shall conutinue with 30 letters that I promised.
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To you,

I don't really know how to start this letter. I'm not even sure if I should be writing this to you, cause I'm not even sure if I like you.
maybe its because you're always so quiet when we're together and I don't really know much about you.
I know usually I talk a lot but I'm not sure if you know about me though. but that doesn't matter right? at least not for now. hahaha.

You know how conincidences always occur? like for the two of them and you?
How we live only one block apart but we're so 'far apart'?
How we used to be from the same tuition center but never talked at all?

sometimes I just feel so lost.
I don't know if you'll become another mistake.
I don't dare to take the first step, I'm afraid to open up.
I'm afraid to start liking you.

not that I don't love the way you are.
I know you're a great person and all, but still...

thats the truth for you.

I think (not believe, cause I'm still pretty much or very unsure) that God is the way and the truth, but He commands that two must be of same faith to be in one flesh.
Thats also why I'm afraid.
I don't want to be disconnected from the church.

I know that I used to believe and I want my faith back. I don't want to stray anymore. I'm trying hard to believe again, but its hard.
Maybe because my heart has hardened already, but still, I want you to know about the good news.
I want us to grow togther in spirit. I want us to grow old together.
I want us to be happy.

I want the two of us to be in heaven after we die.

Thank God the sermons for the next 3 months are on evangelism.
Hope I can grow and hopefully, you can know about Him as well.

Four more months of akward practices, nine more months of akward bus rides and conversations.

And we shall see how :)

love you.