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5. To my Dreams
Hi, I'm back.
Realised I havn't touched 30 letters for 4 months.
The last one was supposed to be on my siblings but I didn't know how to write it.
So I have been thinking about it these few months.
Decided to write a short one and publish them at the time they were supposed to be published. haha.
__________________________________________________________
To my dreams.
apt timing for this letter eh.
I don't really know which 'dream' I should talk about, so I'll do both.
haha.
The dreams that I have when I'm asleep is a relatively accurate reflection of what I think deep down.
What I think of my life right now and everything.
And in it, I dream of being with you.
I didn't sleep until 6am this morning because I was listening to this lecture on the western philosophy of love by MIT on youtube.
looks like I can be in love without falling in love haha.
oh well. we'll see how it works out.
you're not replying my message ):
As for you, the dreams I have when I'm awake, I think its actually quite impossible to achieve.
I want to become a teacher, and I was reading up on the moe scholarships and nus scholarships.
However, I talked about it with my mum this morning but got shot down by her.
I don't understand why she thinks its so bad being a teacher.
sigh.
will think carefully about it.
The other dream I have is quite academic as well.
I want to get a Phd in Physics and teach in a university.
I want to be the one to solve the unanswerable questions in physics and unify quantum physics with relativity.
I want to link M-theory with the Many World's Intepretation.
I want to be the one who will unify Religion and Science.
And I think I have something in my head.
but can't work it out as of yet.
But, I can't even grasp basic maths and physics at A levels.
I don't think i will have a chance to pursue physics overseas.
And I'm not exactly a believer anymore ever since i've backslided.
so, we'll see how.
I think God will have a purpose for me. But I'm not even certain if he exists.
so contradictory and.. ironic.
Why am I so scared of uncertainties?
As for the third dream I have, its to meet someone special.
I guess its everyone's dream.
But I can't even love myself, how can I love someone else?
And somehow I hope that someone special is you.
even though I'm still uncertain about this feeling I have everytime I see you.
Like how Richard Feynman puts it, "I can live with doubt and uncertainty, and not knowing. I think it is much more interesting to live not knowing, than have answers which might be wrong."
my favourite quote from him. haha.
looks like I have to be more optimistic.
uncertainty makes life.. interesting. haha.
oh well.
lets see how I can work towards you.
yours truly.
________________________________________
okay. back to studying.
physical geog paper was alright.
but can't say the same for human (next tuesday)
wish me luck!
Realised I havn't touched 30 letters for 4 months.
The last one was supposed to be on my siblings but I didn't know how to write it.
So I have been thinking about it these few months.
Decided to write a short one and publish them at the time they were supposed to be published. haha.
__________________________________________________________
To my dreams.
apt timing for this letter eh.
I don't really know which 'dream' I should talk about, so I'll do both.
haha.
The dreams that I have when I'm asleep is a relatively accurate reflection of what I think deep down.
What I think of my life right now and everything.
And in it, I dream of being with you.
I didn't sleep until 6am this morning because I was listening to this lecture on the western philosophy of love by MIT on youtube.
looks like I can be in love without falling in love haha.
oh well. we'll see how it works out.
you're not replying my message ):
As for you, the dreams I have when I'm awake, I think its actually quite impossible to achieve.
I want to become a teacher, and I was reading up on the moe scholarships and nus scholarships.
However, I talked about it with my mum this morning but got shot down by her.
I don't understand why she thinks its so bad being a teacher.
sigh.
will think carefully about it.
The other dream I have is quite academic as well.
I want to get a Phd in Physics and teach in a university.
I want to be the one to solve the unanswerable questions in physics and unify quantum physics with relativity.
I want to link M-theory with the Many World's Intepretation.
I want to be the one who will unify Religion and Science.
And I think I have something in my head.
but can't work it out as of yet.
But, I can't even grasp basic maths and physics at A levels.
I don't think i will have a chance to pursue physics overseas.
And I'm not exactly a believer anymore ever since i've backslided.
so, we'll see how.
I think God will have a purpose for me. But I'm not even certain if he exists.
so contradictory and.. ironic.
Why am I so scared of uncertainties?
As for the third dream I have, its to meet someone special.
I guess its everyone's dream.
But I can't even love myself, how can I love someone else?
And somehow I hope that someone special is you.
even though I'm still uncertain about this feeling I have everytime I see you.
Like how Richard Feynman puts it, "I can live with doubt and uncertainty, and not knowing. I think it is much more interesting to live not knowing, than have answers which might be wrong."
my favourite quote from him. haha.
looks like I have to be more optimistic.
uncertainty makes life.. interesting. haha.
oh well.
lets see how I can work towards you.
yours truly.
________________________________________
okay. back to studying.
physical geog paper was alright.
but can't say the same for human (next tuesday)
wish me luck!
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
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